Well lets see....Um, well for some reason I've had the same thoughts for the past couple of months. And now my thoughts just keep coming and don't stop. I have so much to say, but I never tell the person that needs to here it...and now its gripping me tighter and tighter and breaking me ever more. As well I feel horrible for these thoughts because...well I'm with someone. And this guy is great, but he is just a crush and IDK if I can make him anything more than that. I've got something I believe I need to say, but I think these feelings are better left un-spoken. I want so bad to just let this go, but deep down I know that I can never let this go, and all the while I become excited....I fall back down because again I know that it will never happen again. I have begun to think back on things I've done within the recent weeks and know that it has meant nothing....it has only been an escape. So I have become confused on what I should do....a constant struggle between my heart and my head....