Screwing up the best thing you could ever find...why do that? Well I did. And it didn't have to work like this. It only did because of my actions. I bottle my emotions and let them scream out over my heart.

I didn't ever mean things as they seemed. But I never took the time to explain to you what was on my mind. Never could I believe those lies. It did get to me for a bit, but I knew that you would never lie to me...but I never told you that. My emotions became a drug, clouding my mind. They covered all my good judgment. And because of this I lost you. But I want to try and change this; because I love you to much to just give up.

I've slowly realized I must better myself. I must work through my stubborness. I must not let my emotions get in my way anymore. I must not bottle up my feelings. I need to let you know how much I love you.

Everyone tells me I must make myself happy, but no one knows...when I see you happy my heart races. When I see your smile, that beautiful smile...your wonderful eyes, the life they are lit with; that is when I'm truly happy.

Just knowing that you love me...I wish I could say you were by my side right now, in this moment. But I can't feel sorry for myself. Not if I truly want you here